In Love With Gaming Once Again

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It's been three years, THREE YEARS since I last updated this blog.

Many things has happened since my last post, mostly involving personal real life issues.

To bring awareness to one aspect of my life, I suffer from depression and anxiety-two key things that can just make your passion for particular hobbies just evaporate into thin air. You want to give up and do "better" things with your time and skip from one interest to the next in a never ending loop to keep busy or simply do nothing at all. Another problem is I suffer from a form of chronic pain & fatigue which is currently being looked into, so hopefully in time I'm able to get an official diagnosis. Mix everything together and you have just one toxic cocktail that has a huge impact on my life. 90% of my time is spent getting high on pain medication & sleeping. Fantastic...

I've focused on everything else but gaming, it was like my heart hasn't been connected to it as it once was when I was a teenager and deep down; it's been saddening to "avoid" going near a console or the files saved on my laptop. My mind finds it difficult to focus well on what I enjoy, I have this same issue with my art projects, costume making, writing etc etc. I'm easily distracted and disconnect whenever I don't feel it has a purpose. These last few years have been difficult and I've been working on making everything much more fulfilling again.

This summer has been one hell of a ride. I was recently made redundant at my job. This was completely out of my control unfortunately but this I feel has awakened how much I want to be far more creative than before. I've been working on all sorts, from cosplay photography, convention vlogs, planning gameplay videos, new artwork, new costume ideas; an overwhelming amount of just everything you could possibly think of. I have found a new job since then that will give me more freedom to do what I love & improve my overall well-being in life.

It may seem a bit too much but keeping your mind busy can be a great thing. Which is why I finally took back my domain to this blog, gave it a new layout theme and knew I should continue to write. 

To my fellow gamers and general geeky fish with mental health issues, you are not alone at all. 

Peace out. :3